Friends

So, my new friends all think i am crazy and dumb. It kinda hurts. I was so flipping sad at the begining of the semester because I lost all my best friends. well i met this freaking awesome boy. We quickly became friends and all was good in the land of Jo. He was my best friend and told me and others that. He treated me like a best friend. he helped my heart heal...if that even clicks in your head. Well, as time went on, he got a girlfriend, I dont blame him because he is flipping attractive, funny and smart. We still hang out occationaly, but Im not the first one he thinks of when he wants to watch a movie or go get pizza anymore and it kinda hurts. He touched my life in a way that no one could and I am so glad that he was in my life, well i guess he still is. Anyways where im trying to get at is I dont know if its worth it to let people in. It hurts so bad to let them out. but i guess that is part of life eh. its better to have loved and lost then to never loved at all...